Monday, May 23, 2011


My Mom is in town...:)  Something happened at the airport (power outage) and she was delayed a day, but she is here now.  She is getting in a lot of time with Trey!  He has been sleeping through the night (almost, wakes for one feed) and I am super excited about that.  He still isn't big enough (tummy still too small) to sleep all the way through the night, but that is ok.  I usually end up on the recliner with him asleep on my chest or in my arms for a few hours before the sun comes up.  Oh, I left him with my Mom and got to go grocery shopping sans baby.  Completely different experience!  I forgot how nice that was.... 

Today I didn't get a nap...then I get to work and I had boring training.  I have now had 4 cups of is over and guess what?  I am wired!  And then we had 2 tests while in the training.  Good thing the guy training us (me and 1 other guy) wanted a beer really bad, we got some pointers on what would be on the tests and we both passed easily.  This training is to help with a new job they "blessed" me with at work.  Funny thing, people are retiring but new people aren't getting hired.  I have 4 different things that I work on here now, which is craziness!  I don't have enough time to help out in all those areas, good thing that they want me focusing on one area.  Oh, and programming isn't my thing...yet.  We'll see if I like it once I get the hang of it.

I might have to go out to California for a week of programming training...well, not might.  They have to send me as I am utterly clueless as to what I am doing.  I am hoping not to mess things up before I go to that training...and if so, I guess that will be my excuse.  Positive to all of this?  I am getting trained in something new and will be a bit more valuable to the company...:)

T-minus 34 days until Vegas...never been there this fat though.  Bummer.  Wish I could fit into my pre-pregnancy fat pants!  LOL

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Expert troubleshooter...yes, I am.

Should have checked the laundry tub, it had a clog.  So glad the washer is ok...LOL

On another note, I have taken on additional duties at work.  I have found that people are retiring but they aren't hiring people to take those positions.  So what happens to the thing those people worked on?  People like me volunteer to work on additional things.  I might have gotten in a little over my head with what I agreed to do.  I talked to Doug about this and it is going on at his company also...then thing about it is, the more things I can do the better I look to the company.  And...maybe avooid my name being on a know...layoffs. 

My schedule sucks.  4:30pm to 12:30 am is pretty hard to do with a little one, plus getting up early with him and DD.  Naps are what gets me through the day!  I did manage to get out of the house in 20 minutes this morning though, I didn't brush my teeth or even mess with my hair.  Also I was wearing a tshirt that had spitup on it.  Thankfully I didn't have to run to the store.

And thanks for the replies...I do write here for me, but didn't know if anyone really read it...:)  I can try to get on here for 10 min every day (or 2 or 3)...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Thinking I won't be blogging as much...

Well, I keep losing followers, and really - I don't think many people read this.  I know I have readers...I think my blog is a great resource for others that struggle with some serious PCOS and IF, but with the minimal time I get every day I don't think I will be posting much.  I only have a few minutes at work to post as my home life is too busy! 

On that note, I think my washer might be about to break (about a year old!).  Great.  Hope the store we bought it at has a warranty. 

2 month checkup

2 month well baby - Trey is newborn size! He is on the chart now! He is in the 1% for height and weight (for a 2 month old), 8lbs 3oz, 21 inches long, and his head is in the 25%...LOL I knew his head was big. That is thanks to the intrauterine growth restriction (which I am glad he had as he got everything his brain needed). Shots were done, he didn't cry too much. I asked about his birthmarks, he has 2 kinds - he has a mongolian spot at the top of his butt (DD has one too but it is on her back and we have to make sure everyone knows about it or they think we beat her) and he has 3 hemangiomas. One of the hemangiomas might turn into a strawberry (1 is about half an eraser sized and the others are smaller). Thankfully they are all on his backside (the 2 of the hemangiomas are on his back and one is on his inner thigh). I am doing something right...little man is thriving...:)

Next appt is at 4 months...:)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

2 month appointment for little man tomorrow!

I am so looking forward to his appointment tomorrow...I have a few questions to ask - like are the strawberries on his back and bum normal?  I found a bump on the back of his head and forgot to ask about it 6 weeks ago at his first appointment.  I will have to ask about the constipation.  And what I am most curious about is how much little man weighs!  I am beginning to think he is getting a bit long for some of his newborn clothes, the gerber pjs seem to run a bit small.

Also, I am meeting my friend at Children's...she posted pics of her little man today, he isn't breathing on his own and he is on feeding tubes in his belly.  I am going to try to help her as much as I can...they told her to expect him to be in there until her EDD (July), which is the same thing they told me.  I went out and bought some of my fav things for when Trey came home (some awesome baby lotion and body wash - unscented).  I am also giving her his preemie clothes, all except my fav baseball pjs.  I have to keep something so I can remember how small he really was!  Not every day that you have a 3lb 9oz-er...:)

Monday, May 16, 2011

Wish I would have known this stuff...

Today my little dude is 2 months old, his 2 month checkup is on Wednesday!  He is still eating every 2-3 hours, isn't sleeping well, but he is great!  I think he might have a gas water and mylecon have helped a little... 

3/16 seems like such a long time ago!  Today I came across some additional info about pre-e, the one I highlighted in green is something that I had that I knew was a symptom, the ones I highlighted in red were symptoms that I had that I wasn't aware were symptoms:

Symptoms of PIH

If you have any of these symptoms, call your doctor right away:

Severe headaches - I had very mild headached = Tylenol helped.  The nurses told me I was ok if Tylenol helped.  Ha.

Vomiting blood - Nope, but I did yak when I was in the hospital, no clue that was a symptom of pre-e.

Excessive swelling of the feet and hands

Smaller amounts of urine or no urine

Blood in your urine

Rapid heartbeat


Excessive nausea

Ringing or buzzing sound in ears - I have that occasionally anyway, so this was normal.

Excessive vomiting


Fever - I had just gotten over pneumonia a few weeks earlier, but didn't have a high waslow grade.

Double vision

Blurred vision

Sudden blindness

Pain in the abdomen (tummy) - Happened in the hospital

Anyway, I thought it was interesting that I found these symptoms...

Prayers to my friend...

So I had reserve drill weekend this past weekend.  I don't know what it is about drill, but after this weekend that makes 2 women in 2 months that drilled for the weekend and then went on to have their babies very early.  I don't know if she reads my blog, but I am thinking of you and your precious little baby boy!

We talked quite a bit this weekend about baby Trey is doing, how she wanted to go drug-free, how she was hoping to keep that little one baking and have a 7 or 8 pounder.  I did talk to her about things not always going how we plan...she seemed to understand, but really?  How can anyone prepare or expect things like this?  Even though I was in the hospital with Trey I still didn't think that my baby would come early, especially after having a "normal" pregnancy with DD.

She didn't have any complications, totally normal pregnancy.  Yesterday she mentioned he wasn't moving, I mentioned that if she hadn't felt him move by the evening when she was relaxing to make sure to go in.  I don't think she had a chance to relax as she felt menstrual type cramps, went in, and was fully dilated.  She had him very quick, he weighs 3lbs and if I remember right she is 31 weeks (or very close to that, 30 weeks 4 days-ish).  Her little one is in the NICU, but she is at a different hospital.  I don't think they had time to transfer her to a hospital that had a NICU like in my case. 

Although Trey wasn't in the NICU, I know I can be a good listener...she was there for me and I appreciate everything that she did for me!  She even took time out of her day to listen to me and she came to the hospital and reenlisted me in the Navy.  It was great! 

I am planning on going to lunch with her this week at the same restaurants that DH and I frequented while Trey was in the hospital and I will be handing down the adorable preemie clothes...:)       


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

8 weeks old...:)

And still acting like a newborn...hoping to get a little more sleep at night soon!  Lvoe that little guy!  His cry is changing, he sounds like a newborn now and not a preemie.  Once of these days I will try to make it to my favorite consignment store for some 0-3 month clothes...:)  Pretty soon this little man will be filling out his newborn stuff (okokok, probably a month or so from now)...

And my diet has begun!  So far so good...wondering how much the fast loss/cleanse will take off of me...

Friday, May 6, 2011

Couldn't help it...thought this was funny!!!

Yep...gimme my stuff!  LOL.

Mother's Day is upon us...before children I really did dread Mother's Day, seeing all the crap at teh stores, the cards, having to remind myself to send my mom and stepmom cards and small gifts.  It sucked.  Now that I have kids?  It doesn't sting as bad but I still think about those days, those dark days when I was longing to be a mom.  Those days sucked.  I am lucky and feel blessed to have what I have now and I hope that others waiting will get to experience motherhood some day also.  It is hard to explain, but life completely changes once that little one is born, things you said you would never do - you totally find yourself doing them...

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Holy fat butt Batman!

The scale is the devil.  Oh, and so is sugar.  Monday...starting my 7 day fast loss/cleanse.  Then it is on!  I have to lose 20lbs to make it to what I was before baby, then another 20lbs to feel like myself!  Protein shakes, egg whites, oatmeal, and cottage cheese here I come!!!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

The dreaded phone call

So today I got up the nerve to call the fertility doc.  I left a message on the nurse line and of course I didn't have my phone on me when they called back (I was out frantically looking for infant suppositories which I did not find, I saw them last week and the store was out!).

The nurse said that there is no set time to wait to TTC again.  When we are ready we will call to schedula a consultation, then the doc will go over things with is and might even change the protocol as I had severe preeclampsia and HELLP syndrome.  Not sure what he would do, but he is the one with the knowledge.  My OB is definitely not.  I know he had good intentions when he told us to wait 6 months, but then in the next breath (when he realized we had severe issues Oing) he changed the time we should wait to a year...WTH?  Really?  Then he said to call the infertility doc.  I WILL be changing to a different OB, if I get pregnant again I will probably have to be with a perinatologist (sp?) anyway, but I will need to find a regular OB...I don't htink I can handle him much longer...:)

Anyway, I haven't really talked to DH, just mentioned the great news to him.  I am not sure when we will decide to go back, I do know that I need to lose some weight (I would like to lose 25lbs).  I am not over the BMI where the RE won't treat me, but I can't see myself getting pregnant at this size...I would be a house at 8 months pregnant...

I am excited, yet a little scared....but I am hopeful.  I hope that things work out and we will be able to add to our family again, I am glad that I have my wonderful RE and won't have to go through all those years of false hope.  I do realize that I might have to stop working with adding another child in the mix, and that would mean getting rid of quite a few things that we don't "need"...:)  Simplifying isn't bad....right?

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A to Z of TTC

A. Age when you started TTC: 21

B. Baby Dancing or Sex: Sex.

C. Children wanted:  We now have 2, unsure of adding a third to the mix...still waiting to call the RE...guess I am nervous?

D. Dogs/Cats/Fill in Children:  1 dog, a few saltwater fish (love that saltwater tank!), and a snake (ball python)

E. Essential Oils/Vitamins/Snake Oils: I am currently taking nada.
F. Fertility Meds I’ve taken: Clomid, Ovidrel, Lupron, Gonal-F, Progesterone, probably a few others that I forgot about.

G. Gain:  During TTC I gained about 15-20lbs
H. HSG (Hystosalpingogram):  Feb 2010, Re thought my left tube might be blocked...that is the side I O'd from (when I finally had an O) and voila!  2 weeks later I was knocked up.  Yay for an O!!!
I. Infertile Pet Peeves:  The stupid things that people say.  I mean really?  Don't people think BEFORE they speak?  Nope.

J. Job title: engineeering technician
K. Kids' names you’re afraid will be taken by the time you can use them:  Not afraid of that.
L. Length of time TTC:  Total time TTC:  11 years.  Barf.
M. Miscarriages: September 2009

N. Number of times you’ve switched OB/GYNS, REs, FSs:  In those 11 years?  Uh, quite a few times although it was due to moving with the military. 

O. Ovarian quality:  PCOS.  I don't have any of the outwardly symptoms though, my OB didn't dx me because of that reason...even though I had many small cysts on my ovaries and abnormal cycles.

P. POAS or wait for AF:  Well, after I found that I wasn't Oing (ever!) I was pretty pissed as I POAS a lot.  So when I finally did get a good O I was POAS like a crazy lady.

Q. Quote from an obnoxious fertile:  There are so many.  "I got off the pill and got pregnant in 2 weeks!"  "You can have my kids."  "You have a kid, you can't be infertile." 

R. RE, OB/Gyn or other? RE

S. Sperm: the are good to go.  All the issues are def me.
T. Time you tried naturally:  11/99 - 5/09
U. Uterus quality:  Good...
V. Vagina: Normal

W. What baby stuff do you already have?  Lots as I have babies!

X. X-tra X-tra Hear all about it! How many people know the ins and outs of our crazy TTC journey?  Lots of people.  Friends, family, blog friends...

Y. Yearly Exam (do you still go in even though someone sees your lady parts most months?): yes

Z. Zits: get them when pregnant.

10 on Tuesday

1. What is the weather like in your city today?

LOL.  It was 32 degrees this morning...insane.  As the day went on it warmed up....a little.

2. Do you like the zoo?

Yes, I just honestly don't have time.
3. Do you eat coconut?

I like fresh coconut while I am spending time on the beach.
4. Have you ever hammered a nail? Are you good at it?

Yup to both.

5. Does your family have a vacation destination that you visit often?

A few.  California (DH's family lives there), Vegas (we have a timeshare there and in a few other places), and we love to cruise.
6. How many pillows do you sleep with?

7. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Check on little man.

8. Will you send your kids to summer camp?

Hummm...probably not. 

9. What do you put in your baked potatoes?

Sounds gross, but I put cottage cheese and broccoli on mine.  Makes it a meal.

10. Did you take swimming lessons as a kid?

Yes. I learned how to swim when I was a baby.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Due date.

Sometimes I think back and realize that May 2nd was a looooong time away from when Trey was born.  Crazy to think that almost 8 weeks ago he was brought into our lives.  His 2 month appt is coming up quick!!!  And I weighed him on our super scientific scale (HA!) and it looks like he almost weighs 7lbs now. 

Things have been a little plugged up in his system these days...poor guy.  We have been trying a few things that the nurses on the nurse line recommended.  So far they haven't worked so I will be calling back in a few days to report what has been happening.

Weight...:(  I have gained 5+lbs since I stopped BF.  So next week I will be hitting the dieting thing hard, not so much a diet as just eating much cleaner.  I have had this crazy sweets craving since I had the baby and I need to get over it or I will be 2 sizes larger than my norm forever!  So, 30lbs gained, 20lbs were lost and I have found 5-10lbs again...lovely.

Monday will be the day.  Starting a 7 day quick loss/cleanse.