How far along: 27 weeks!
Total weight gain/loss: Um, 20ish...er, well, probably more than that now...face is looking mighty swollen!
Maternity clothes: Definitely.
Stretch marks: No new ones, got some comments this weekend about how nice the belly is looking....:)
Sleep: This weekend the sleep was not so good, traveling and snotty nose had a lot to do with that.
Movement: Mostly at night.
Cravings: Still haven't been super hungry due to this silly cold.
Gender: It is a surprise! I have stocked up on some neutral layette items (had more than a few neutral items left over from DD) all are washed and ready to go!
Symptoms: Very swollen hands while traveling this weekend.
What I miss: The things I miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Meeting this little miracle.
Moods: Getting a bit more emotional these days.
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: Went to urgent care yesterday, been coughing so much that my throat hurts sooooo bad. Was told to take Benadryl to help sleep...
Weekly Wisdom: Even after many yeras, friends can totally surprise you and make you cry!
Best moment this week: Flew out east to go to a baby shower of an IF friend (only one I have in real life) and had a blast! Some other friends decided to throw me a surprise baby shower that night and I was completely clueless! It was a blast.
Worst moment this week: Just trying to get over this stupid cold...
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
A long way...
As I sit and think about the last 4 or so years, I have come to the realization that I have changed. I went from being a happy mom of a 1.5 year old awesome little girl, to a pretty bitter infertile lady, then a lady that had a pregnancy taken away from her (still a bittter infertile lady), and now I am a scared pregnant lady. Scared of something going wrong, scared of the unknown...well, just plain scared.
I have been invited to probably around 10 baby showers in the last 3 years and how many did I end up going to? Only 3. And 2 of those showers were last year after I started this blog...which has been a great emotional outlet.
Looking back I just want to kick myself. Why didn't the OB believe me? Just because you have a child (which by the way was not an easy task either! 5 years and lots of heartache) doesn't mean you aren't suffering from SIF. I am so thankful to have found an awesome RE that understands and invited me back again next year after this little miracle blesses us with his/her smiling face...:) Maybe we will try for another? Maybe not, but having that option feels like an absolute blessing.
I have been invited to probably around 10 baby showers in the last 3 years and how many did I end up going to? Only 3. And 2 of those showers were last year after I started this blog...which has been a great emotional outlet.
Looking back I just want to kick myself. Why didn't the OB believe me? Just because you have a child (which by the way was not an easy task either! 5 years and lots of heartache) doesn't mean you aren't suffering from SIF. I am so thankful to have found an awesome RE that understands and invited me back again next year after this little miracle blesses us with his/her smiling face...:) Maybe we will try for another? Maybe not, but having that option feels like an absolute blessing.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Wow! Less than 100 days!
As I sit here typing and reading blogs, I have a pile of tissues waiting off to the side...why, you ask? This prego lady has an insane cold. I had been fighting it off since Wednesday or Thursday, but I am sure working the whole weekend along with some additional hours over my 40 usual hours working last week didn't help my fight. So I finally called the nurse line and got the list of meds I can take. Mucinex DM seems to be doing the trick (along with Tylenol and cough drops).
Week 26!!!
How far along: 26 weeks! Your baby would now weigh about two pounds and measures around 14 inches- just like an English hothouse cucumber.
Total weight gain/loss: 15 pounds (that is until my appt on 2/2 when I find out how much I have gained the last 4 weeks)
Maternity clothes: Definitely.
Stretch marks: No new ones.
Sleep: Eh, the cold I have been dealing with has me up at all hours blowing my nose...:(
Movement: If I sit still long enough (ha!) I can feel the little one kick (enev when sleeping).
Cravings: Haven't been very hungry the last 4-5 days due to the cold.
Gender: It is a surprise! I have stocked up on some neutral layette items (had more than a few neutral items left over from DD) all are washed and ready to go!
Symptoms: Heartburn, tired, hands are a bit swollen (already???)
What I miss: The things I miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Meeting this little miracle.
Moods: Getting a bit more emotional these days.
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: Not a concern, but this cold is kicking my rear! I even debated going into work today...LOL
Weekly Wisdom: Hummm...none really this week. :)
Best moment this week: Realizing that I have about 3 months to go...
Worst moment this week: No really bad moments, nothing compares to the sickness I have right now!
Week 26!!!
How far along: 26 weeks! Your baby would now weigh about two pounds and measures around 14 inches- just like an English hothouse cucumber.
Total weight gain/loss: 15 pounds (that is until my appt on 2/2 when I find out how much I have gained the last 4 weeks)
Maternity clothes: Definitely.
Stretch marks: No new ones.
Sleep: Eh, the cold I have been dealing with has me up at all hours blowing my nose...:(
Movement: If I sit still long enough (ha!) I can feel the little one kick (enev when sleeping).
Cravings: Haven't been very hungry the last 4-5 days due to the cold.
Gender: It is a surprise! I have stocked up on some neutral layette items (had more than a few neutral items left over from DD) all are washed and ready to go!
Symptoms: Heartburn, tired, hands are a bit swollen (already???)
What I miss: The things I miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Meeting this little miracle.
Moods: Getting a bit more emotional these days.
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: Not a concern, but this cold is kicking my rear! I even debated going into work today...LOL
Weekly Wisdom: Hummm...none really this week. :)
Best moment this week: Realizing that I have about 3 months to go...
Worst moment this week: No really bad moments, nothing compares to the sickness I have right now!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
25 weeks
How far along: 25 weeks! Your baby is approximately 1.5 pounds and just under 13.7 inches long. From this point on, your baby's weight and length may vary somewhat. Every baby is different, some babies will be born weighing 7 pounds and others 10. <-- Hoping baby is on the lower end here! Not sure as DD was an 8 pounder at almost 2 weeks early...:(
Total weight gain/loss: 15 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Definitely.
Stretch marks: No new ones. Been using good lotions and oils, hoping they help.
Sleep: Pretty crazy dreams lately...one of the many things that I forgot about pregnancy...amazing what escapes my mind after 6 years...
Movement: Yes, not as much as I would like to feel, but I have to remember that the little one sleeps in there too...
Cravings: Hummm...haven't been super hungry the last week...not sure why.
Gender: It is a surprise! It sure does make people mad...:) I actually don't know many people in real life that are doing (or have done) the surprise thing...:) But the ones I do meet that have end up commending us for it! Pretty cool.
Symptoms: Not a whole lot of them this week....well, heartburn has been kicking my bum. Maybe that is why I haven't been hungry...
What I miss: The things I miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Meeting this little miracle.
Moods: Getting a bit more emotional these days.
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: None, although I am taking it super easy as I had 4 heart palpitations in 30 minutes last week (never had that with DD).
Weekly Wisdom: Check to see if the crib you love is in stock (or can be ordered) BEFORE you get your heart set on it. :( Ended up getting a better one, but I was still a bit mad.
Best moment this week: Um...not too many this week. Well, nothing stands out.
Worst moment this week: I think DD is realizing that things are going to be changing soon and even a 5 and a half year old (yea, we hit the stage where we HAVE to add in that half) is smart enough to realize her life is about to be turned upside down...LOL
Total weight gain/loss: 15 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Definitely.
Stretch marks: No new ones. Been using good lotions and oils, hoping they help.
Sleep: Pretty crazy dreams lately...one of the many things that I forgot about pregnancy...amazing what escapes my mind after 6 years...
Movement: Yes, not as much as I would like to feel, but I have to remember that the little one sleeps in there too...
Cravings: Hummm...haven't been super hungry the last week...not sure why.
Gender: It is a surprise! It sure does make people mad...:) I actually don't know many people in real life that are doing (or have done) the surprise thing...:) But the ones I do meet that have end up commending us for it! Pretty cool.
Symptoms: Not a whole lot of them this week....well, heartburn has been kicking my bum. Maybe that is why I haven't been hungry...
What I miss: The things I miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Meeting this little miracle.
Moods: Getting a bit more emotional these days.
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: None, although I am taking it super easy as I had 4 heart palpitations in 30 minutes last week (never had that with DD).
Weekly Wisdom: Check to see if the crib you love is in stock (or can be ordered) BEFORE you get your heart set on it. :( Ended up getting a better one, but I was still a bit mad.
Best moment this week: Um...not too many this week. Well, nothing stands out.
Worst moment this week: I think DD is realizing that things are going to be changing soon and even a 5 and a half year old (yea, we hit the stage where we HAVE to add in that half) is smart enough to realize her life is about to be turned upside down...LOL
Friday, January 14, 2011
Eggplant...LOL
Funny how I get hungry every time I visit my blog. I blame it on the "How big is baby" thing on the left.
Even funnier how my uterus is now the size of a soccer ball and is starting to feel that way. It is amazing the things that you forget when 6 years passes in between pregnancies...:)
MIL in town, going to buy the crib and dresser tonight! Super excited to get things moving and get that room ready for this miracle we have been hoping for...
Even funnier how my uterus is now the size of a soccer ball and is starting to feel that way. It is amazing the things that you forget when 6 years passes in between pregnancies...:)
MIL in town, going to buy the crib and dresser tonight! Super excited to get things moving and get that room ready for this miracle we have been hoping for...
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Heart palpitations and furniture...
So I was sitting at work and my heart started racing. I thought that was odd. A few minutes later it happened again, and then again about 5 minutes later. So I called my OB, he asked if I had any caffeine (not since July) or if I had been doing any sort of activity (nope) or if I was in a warm room (yes). So I left the warm room and drank another 50 or so ounces of water. Feeling better now and didn't have to go in.
The time has come to pick out the furniture. We have it down to 2 different companies and after thinking about each set and looking at it online I think I (ha, not we) decided on the Babi Italia Eastside convertible cherry crib (and tall 5 drawer dresser). We will also buy a changing table (but not another dresser, too much $ and space used up in the room).
Here are the pics:
I think it will work out perfect. Excited to get things going and clear out that room! Doing the getting ready for baby dance now!!! :)
The time has come to pick out the furniture. We have it down to 2 different companies and after thinking about each set and looking at it online I think I (ha, not we) decided on the Babi Italia Eastside convertible cherry crib (and tall 5 drawer dresser). We will also buy a changing table (but not another dresser, too much $ and space used up in the room).
Here are the pics:
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
111 days to go on 1/11...LOL
Ha! I thought that was pretty neat. 111 days to go...hard to imagine that I will be having a baby in April/early May...:) Just insane really.
Oh, and I am definitely feeling like a procrastinator. We are finally at the viability stage and I have barely thought about getting the bedroom cleared out. Kind of hard to buy a baby bedroom set when the spare room furniture is still in the baby's room...DH's mom is visiting this weekend and she wants to go pick out the crib...aaaack! Time to invite people over for a few beers and bribe them to move furniture I guess!!!
Oh, and I am definitely feeling like a procrastinator. We are finally at the viability stage and I have barely thought about getting the bedroom cleared out. Kind of hard to buy a baby bedroom set when the spare room furniture is still in the baby's room...DH's mom is visiting this weekend and she wants to go pick out the crib...aaaack! Time to invite people over for a few beers and bribe them to move furniture I guess!!!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Wow...24 weeks!
How far along: 24 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 15 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Yes, and the belly has definitely "popped", but not as much as about a month from now I am guessing...:)
Stretch marks: New ones, not yet...can see some old ones looking mighty fine.
Sleep: Been sleeping better, minus the falling asleep on the couch and finally going to bed (after a bathroom break) at 3am.
Movement: Yes, not as much as I would like to feel, but I have to remember that the little one sleeps in there too...
Cravings: If someone is talking about a certain food (really doesn't matter what it is) I will end up craving it. Aversions: Today? Food in general. Just not feeling hungry. I will eat though...for the baby.
Gender: We are doing the surprise thing! It sure does make people mad though...:) I actually don't know many people in real life that are doing (or have done) the surprise thing...:) But the ones I do meet that have end up commending us for it! Pretty cool.
Symptoms: Not a whole lot of them this week. Constipation has been an issue. Asked my OB and he gave the ok to take Benefiber...so I have had that a few times in the last few days along with Fiber One bars...
What I miss: Being pregnant with DD was a bit easier than this pregnancy (SCH complications) but honestly the things I do miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Charlie being viable and being able to play music and feel Charlie move to it...
Moods: Eh, pregnancy hormones change my mood with a quickness...The Baby Story show on TLC has me in tears each and every time I watch it. To think that we will be in the delivery room again in 3+ months...eeeek!
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: None at the moment, other than I keep forgetting to call to see if I am off of pelvic rest.
Weekly Wisdom: Crib shopping is not the most fun in the world for a 5 year old. Next time, let her bring the DS so she isn't so bored...
Best moment this week: DH, DD and I went out to eat, after we were done the server asked if we wanted D-E-S-S-E-R-T. I said no but then DD exclaimed "DESSERT?!?!?!" And then she smiled so cute at the server....LOL
Worst moment this week: Um...er...pregnancy gas. Enough said.
Total weight gain/loss: 15 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Yes, and the belly has definitely "popped", but not as much as about a month from now I am guessing...:)
Stretch marks: New ones, not yet...can see some old ones looking mighty fine.
Sleep: Been sleeping better, minus the falling asleep on the couch and finally going to bed (after a bathroom break) at 3am.
Movement: Yes, not as much as I would like to feel, but I have to remember that the little one sleeps in there too...
Cravings: If someone is talking about a certain food (really doesn't matter what it is) I will end up craving it. Aversions: Today? Food in general. Just not feeling hungry. I will eat though...for the baby.
Gender: We are doing the surprise thing! It sure does make people mad though...:) I actually don't know many people in real life that are doing (or have done) the surprise thing...:) But the ones I do meet that have end up commending us for it! Pretty cool.
Symptoms: Not a whole lot of them this week. Constipation has been an issue. Asked my OB and he gave the ok to take Benefiber...so I have had that a few times in the last few days along with Fiber One bars...
What I miss: Being pregnant with DD was a bit easier than this pregnancy (SCH complications) but honestly the things I do miss can wait 3+ months.
What I look forward to: Charlie being viable and being able to play music and feel Charlie move to it...
Moods: Eh, pregnancy hormones change my mood with a quickness...The Baby Story show on TLC has me in tears each and every time I watch it. To think that we will be in the delivery room again in 3+ months...eeeek!
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: None at the moment, other than I keep forgetting to call to see if I am off of pelvic rest.
Weekly Wisdom: Crib shopping is not the most fun in the world for a 5 year old. Next time, let her bring the DS so she isn't so bored...
Best moment this week: DH, DD and I went out to eat, after we were done the server asked if we wanted D-E-S-S-E-R-T. I said no but then DD exclaimed "DESSERT?!?!?!" And then she smiled so cute at the server....LOL
Worst moment this week: Um...er...pregnancy gas. Enough said.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
23 week pic...and appt update!
Had my 23 week appointment today, all is well. So far I have gained 15lbs, 7 of those since my appt at 19 weeks. Had some questions on what meds I can take as I know things will start to get bad soon (heartburn, constipation...LOL). Heartbeat is at 144, the belly measured 24cm, next appointment I have to stop by and take the glucose yummy drink (seriously I like it...). I think I got the green light for not being on pelvic rest but I should probably call to make sure...:)
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Articles...
It is amazing what reading an article can do to me. I read an article in the Washington Post that was titled "Pain of infertility tears apart friendship". Yep, it definitely can.
Infertility is rough. I have suffered through it for all of my adult life. I was never open about my infertility until a few years ago (and in the last year I became a freak about telling every single person I talked to about my issues - which I feel really helped me, but probably annoyed the crap out of people, but eh, whatever.) But now most of my friends and family know what I have gone through (and know a little more about infertility and the struggles many couples go through) and honestly, I feel better about it all. What pains me is that there have been times that someone "judged" me for how I have gone about combating my IF. Eh, I believe that medicine and science was put on Earth to help people in any way possible...:)
The thing about infertility is that either side (the person suffering from IF or the person not suffering from it) can say or do hurtful things to other people. Before I got pregnant this time I avoided pregnant women (which is a hard thing to do at this stage in life), I avoided baby showers/babiesrus (again, hard!), but I had to get try to get myself out of that depressed mood. I started this blog to get my feelings out there and it helped me so much. It helped me to actually go to baby showers, I made a few diaper cakes (is it wrong to make one for yourself???), and I even helped a friend register at babiesrus...
Even though I am pregnant and I have a child I know that when we try again we will encounter the same issues. Pregnancy doesn't cure IF. I will always be infertile...but I will have a few earth angels along with my angel baby that looks down on me...:)
Infertility is rough. I have suffered through it for all of my adult life. I was never open about my infertility until a few years ago (and in the last year I became a freak about telling every single person I talked to about my issues - which I feel really helped me, but probably annoyed the crap out of people, but eh, whatever.) But now most of my friends and family know what I have gone through (and know a little more about infertility and the struggles many couples go through) and honestly, I feel better about it all. What pains me is that there have been times that someone "judged" me for how I have gone about combating my IF. Eh, I believe that medicine and science was put on Earth to help people in any way possible...:)
The thing about infertility is that either side (the person suffering from IF or the person not suffering from it) can say or do hurtful things to other people. Before I got pregnant this time I avoided pregnant women (which is a hard thing to do at this stage in life), I avoided baby showers/babiesrus (again, hard!), but I had to get try to get myself out of that depressed mood. I started this blog to get my feelings out there and it helped me so much. It helped me to actually go to baby showers, I made a few diaper cakes (is it wrong to make one for yourself???), and I even helped a friend register at babiesrus...
Even though I am pregnant and I have a child I know that when we try again we will encounter the same issues. Pregnancy doesn't cure IF. I will always be infertile...but I will have a few earth angels along with my angel baby that looks down on me...:)
Monday, January 3, 2011
First baby item
DH and I are definitely procrastinating this time around...funny, you would think that after 4 years of TTC and IF we would jump on it and get things done. I am not sure what it is, the fact that we are finally pregnant, the fact we don't know the gender, or the fact that this is our 2nd baby and the feelings we got when we were pregnant with DD are not there. It definitely feels different this time.
I think we will go this weekend to look for a crib and dresser set. We did purchase a baby swing (plugs in!) from a consignment store yesterday so that is out of the way. If this little one is anything like DD we would have spent a ton of $ on batteries for a swing (like with DD). I do have many many neutral outfits (plus all of DD's clothes) and small items for the new little one (toys, positioner, etc).
May 2nd really isn't that far away...it is less than 4 months now. Amazing that our lives are going to change so much in that short amount of time...:)
I think we will go this weekend to look for a crib and dresser set. We did purchase a baby swing (plugs in!) from a consignment store yesterday so that is out of the way. If this little one is anything like DD we would have spent a ton of $ on batteries for a swing (like with DD). I do have many many neutral outfits (plus all of DD's clothes) and small items for the new little one (toys, positioner, etc).
May 2nd really isn't that far away...it is less than 4 months now. Amazing that our lives are going to change so much in that short amount of time...:)
Wow...23 weeks...
How far along: 23 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Around 15 pounds I am guessing.
Maternity clothes: Yes, and the belly has definitely "popped".
Stretch marks: New ones, not yet...can see some old ones looking mighty fine.
Sleep: Eh, I must have hit that point where I have to pee every 30 minutes. Two gulps of water send me to the bathroom within an hour.
Movement: Yes, lots of it at night...looks like we have another night owl like DD was.
Cravings: LOL...I don't "crave" anything unless I hear someone mention something, then I have to have that specific food right away! Aversions: Eh, none really...
Gender: Charlie is going to be a surprise! I have found many many baby items from DD that I had tucked away in plastic bins (girl clothes from NB to size 5, bedding, toys, neutral baby clothes, I hit the jackpot!)...
Symptoms: Heartburn - sometimes. Swollen nose/sinuses - yes. Fat ankles - nope. Constipation - off and on). Feeling like my belly grows all day - yes. Starting to slow down a little too...
What I miss: Being pregnant with DD was a bit easier than this pregnancy (SCH complications) but honestly the things I do miss can wait 4 months (less than that I think)...
What I look forward to: Charlie being viable and being able to play music and feel Charlie move to it...
Moods: Eh, pregnancy hormones change my mood with a quickness...
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: Appt on Wed, I will ask about a meds list, and if I am still on pelvic rest...;)
Weekly Wisdom: New Year's eve can be fun while drinking water...LOL
Best moment this week: Sleeping in after staying up late playing video games with DD.
Worst moment this week: Getting to the point where I realized that my balance is being affected by this little one...almost busted my bum a few times on ice.
Total weight gain/loss: Around 15 pounds I am guessing.
Maternity clothes: Yes, and the belly has definitely "popped".
Stretch marks: New ones, not yet...can see some old ones looking mighty fine.
Sleep: Eh, I must have hit that point where I have to pee every 30 minutes. Two gulps of water send me to the bathroom within an hour.
Movement: Yes, lots of it at night...looks like we have another night owl like DD was.
Cravings: LOL...I don't "crave" anything unless I hear someone mention something, then I have to have that specific food right away! Aversions: Eh, none really...
Gender: Charlie is going to be a surprise! I have found many many baby items from DD that I had tucked away in plastic bins (girl clothes from NB to size 5, bedding, toys, neutral baby clothes, I hit the jackpot!)...
Symptoms: Heartburn - sometimes. Swollen nose/sinuses - yes. Fat ankles - nope. Constipation - off and on). Feeling like my belly grows all day - yes. Starting to slow down a little too...
What I miss: Being pregnant with DD was a bit easier than this pregnancy (SCH complications) but honestly the things I do miss can wait 4 months (less than that I think)...
What I look forward to: Charlie being viable and being able to play music and feel Charlie move to it...
Moods: Eh, pregnancy hormones change my mood with a quickness...
Milestones: Another week down!
Medical Concerns: Appt on Wed, I will ask about a meds list, and if I am still on pelvic rest...;)
Weekly Wisdom: New Year's eve can be fun while drinking water...LOL
Best moment this week: Sleeping in after staying up late playing video games with DD.
Worst moment this week: Getting to the point where I realized that my balance is being affected by this little one...almost busted my bum a few times on ice.
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