Struggle...

So, I haven't been the best blogger in the world.  Eh, whatever. 

I am truly lucky.  Lucky to have the children that I was blessed with, lucky to have a great career (um, 2 of them), lucky to have the best DH a woman could have, and lucky to be alive.  I am truly happy, yet I long for another child.  It is hard to explain to my friends that have never dealt with IF, but how does one know that they are finished having children?  I am not sure that a number can be placed on how many children I would like to have.  DH laughed when I told him that.  I know it will be a struggle for both of us as we work opposite shifts, but a few years of that will benefit our bank account, and will give both of us lots of time with the kids. 

And...I will start Metformin tonight.  And I WILL open the paperwork that arrived in the mail from the RE.  Tonight. 

And it starts again....

So the decision has been made.  The RE's office got a call from me today.  I am waiting on my next AF and then I will call them back (well...I will call them after 35 days of no AF which will be in early January), then I start BCP and schedule an HSG.  Then it is on to Lupron!  For now I can get started back on Metformin. 

I "might" get a good O close to Trey's 1st bday!  Holy crap.  We are trying this again...and not wasting time on Clomid. 

And yes, got the go ahead from all the docs!

Been a bit quiet...

Apologies...if I have many bloggie readers?  LOL

Why, you ask, have I been quiet?  Well, I have been working some serious hours at work (and for the Navy), and the time I spend at home is spent with the kids.  Facebook, blogs, shopping (eeek!) has all taken the backburner. 

Got the results from the high-risk OB (and RE) and all of my bloodwork looks normal (no blood clotting issues and liver function is normal).  So...we got the go ahead for TTC #3.  Upon getting that news we have also been faced with the possibility that DH might get military orders to be away for 3 months to a year.  So TTC might be taking the backburner.  Not sure yet, which sucks something fierce. 

I keep putting off calling the RE back to get on Metformin and BCP, they probably think I am a huge flake, but I hate to start something if we can't finish it.  I have been debating starting slow (Clomid) but I know what will happen (nothing) so I think we might just get back into it with the IVF med routine and TI.

And on that note...AF has been missing for awhile now.  Last one was the beginning of September...no, not pregnant as my body doesn't work like that.  I did test and was (suprisingly) not disappointed.  Been thinking about calling the OB and getting on BCP to try and get this crazy body in some kind of normal state.  Oh, and I am still fat.  Almost 9 months post baby and I have 20lbs to lose...?  Starting the Reboot your Life program tomorrow...after a trip to the grocery store to spend some serious dough on produce.  Then I might do a cleanse also as my system is all kids of messed up.    

High risk...

So, at my appt with my RE I told him I wanted to see a high risk OB to ask questions about pre-e and HELLP happening again.  My appt was yesterday.  The high risk OB was great (the nurse was a bit more informative though), she answered our questions, gave us lots of good info, and we left there feeling great.  1 in 4 chance at pre-e again, and a 5% chance of HELLP if I get pre-e again.  I knew all of that as I have been studying up a bit on it all.  Some blood was drawn to check for blood clotting issues (I had a very bad bleed at 13 weeks with Trey) and those results should come back in a few weeks.  The doc mentioned taking baby aspirin but wasn't sure what I should do since I am allergic to aspirin.  She explained about Trey's placenta not being as healthy as it should have been (clotting issues?  A fluke?  Pre-e and HELLP have no known causes).  She talked a bit about the D&C I had to get placenta out (I just called it the vacuum), and she said there is nothing preventing us trying again.  I mentioned my weight (I am about 25lbs over my "normal" weight) and she said I am within my BMI and weight isn't an issue. 

Funny...she knows my RE.  Small world in the doctor community I guess.  I will be calling the RE to get meds started soon.  I am hoping the Metformin helps out a bit with my weight issues and sugar cravings.  :)  And now I have to get into the TTC mindset again...exciting and scary as my mind keeps going back to the appt with the RE.  Having 2 follies mature was great, but the fact that there were 5 more that were close makes me nervous of overstimulating again.  Guess we'll see what happens. 

 

PCOS and pregnancy complications.

Wish I would have found this MUCH earlier!

http://www.tree.com/health/ovarian-cysts-polycystic-ovarian-syndrome-pcos-pregnancy.aspx

Now that I have dealt with this I will know what to look for if we get the go ahead (and decide to go ahead).

10/26

I kept reminding myself to call the high risk OB...then my home phone rang and I was busy, checked it later and sure enough, it was them...funny as they were supposed to call last week.  I called back and made the appointment, we'll see what they say. 

I know I need to lose some weight (20lbs) to be healthier, but I am still under the max BMI for my RE to treat me.  Yay. 

DH and I have talked and will make our decision after we talk to the high risk OB.

Still no call...:/

The high risk OB hasn't called me back yet, so I will try to remember to call tomorrow.  DH and I have had a long talk about it all and are ok either way...we are so very lucky to have 2 IF miracles.  We always wanted 3 little ones, so it will be hard for us to call it quits (12 years hoping and praying takes a toll on you though)...

T is doing well, he is growing like a weed just like his big sis!  He almost skipped 6 month sized clothes completely.  He is now in 9 month clothes and won't be for long...silly mom bought his winter gear in 12 month sizes...won't last him through the winter!

Had a crappy week, had some water damage to the house - carpet and walls will be getting replaced; lost my purse (maybe stolen?), and found evidence of a rodent in our basement ceiling.  Maybe this week will be better.