Thursday, January 26, 2012


It isn't like I eat horribly...but, pretty sure I am right about this.  Thanks again PCOS.  My appointment can't come fast enough.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Endocrinologist appt and a non-crawling 10 month old...

Finally.  A doctor listened to my concerns!  My fasting blood sugar read high and I am awaiting an appointment with someone that might be able to give me some answers.  Reminds me that I need to find out from my dad who on his side of the family ended up with diabetes at a young age.  I am not obese, but I know there is something funky going on in my body and has been going on for a long time, maybe I can get some straight answers as to how PCOS has affected not just my fertility, but other aspects of my life also. 

T is still not crawling.  He is becoming quite mobile on his back by using his legs to push himself around.  He doesn't roll much anymore, but loves to play in his Jumperoo and in his Bright Starts Activity Station.  I have had many comments on how babies should crawl and that he will have issues later (reading, dexterity, etc) if he doesn't, but I have been doing a lot of reading and found that he just might skip crawling...and that is perfectly fine (as per his pediatrician).  And you know what?  It isn't like I am preventing him from crawling!  I mean, really?  Sometimes I wish people would stop giving parenting advice (assvice) but that might be asking a bit too much...:)

Monday, January 9, 2012


LOL.  Sometimes I make myself laugh and I need one today!  Fellow Navy personnel will (maybe) understand the title. 

So, we were bound and determined to go for #3.  I was 100% positive AF would stay away due to my crazy PCOS, but to my surprise she showed TWICE in a month!  Holy crap.  I was going to call today to schedule my HSG.  But..nope, DH got home and informed me that he will probably be going overseas for a bit (3+ months).  He would leave sometime next month so TTC #3 is on hold and probably won't happen now as I will have to adjust my schedule to allow for daycare.  And 2 (possibly 3) little ones in daycare (plus DD in the summer) would literally bankrupt us. 

I am trying to get to a place where I am ok with this, but after TTC for 12 years it is a hard thing for me to do.  Everyone that suffers from IF has their roadblocks, but dang...our 2nd careers in the military really do throw a wrench in our "plans".  I guess the problem that I have is that I never got that "feeling" that so many other moms have told me about, the feeling that my family is complete.  I hate to feel forced that my family is complete, but I have to remember that we have 2 beautiful miracle children.

Something that I HAVE to remember is that my RE reiterated that we were lucky, not just from having preeclampsia and HELLP (and both the baby and I surviving), but that we had 2 follies ready and 5 more that were so close that he was going to call off the cycle.  I am glad he didn't tell me that then as I would have been a mess as his clinic doesn't "allow" more than a twin pregnancy.

So fellow IF-ers...for now I am signing off.  I don't really want to think about TTC or anything related to it(which reminds me, I need to distance myself from all the mom groups as those women are TTC again and there are quite a few that are pg again).

I will leave you all with a recent pic of Trey. Our HELLP miracle.