Should we have done things differently on this journey? Maybe. But if we had, I probably wouldn't be who I am now. I have felt lost and alone so many times over these last 4 years, but knowing I have this outlet, this blog, has changed things for me. Seeing others struggle, then end up pregnant, and giving birth to beautiful babies has made me feel something I haven't felt in a long time. HOPE.
And now here I am, one of those that struggled and now I am almost at the finish line. It has been hard as our loss last year really put things into perspective. To have something so beautiful taken away so fast is something that can't be explained. It made this pregnancy not seem real, and made us both think horrible things at each and every appointment. But now? Feeling baby Charlie moving around all day every day has me feeling pretty optimistic. Optimistic for the the rest of this pregnancy and optimistic for the next little infertility miracle we would like to be blessed with.