I sit here and think that not too long ago I was mad at the world...mad at my ovaries, mad at my OB for missing the PCOS diagnosis, mad that when I did get pregnant with the OB I ended up miscarrying, mad that this would be that baby's first Christmas, mad that 4 years had been wasted because I waited 2 years to say anything to the OB, and you know what? I was just plain mad. Now I am 21 weeks pregnant, a miracle. An early birthday present that I had been wishing for...
How far along: 21 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: My best guess as of this point is I have gained about 10-15 pounds. I am sure the goodies around this time of year will add to that though.
Maternity clothes: Ha! Lupron and stim drugs did a number on me, I have been wearing maternity pants/jeans since week 5!
Stretch marks: Yea, it comes with the miracle baby...:)
Sleep: Bad dreams last night, but have been sleeping ok.
Movement: I LOVE OJ, it helps me to really feel Charlie kick.
Cravings: Uh, the past few days I have been having some gastrointestinal pains, so food isn't really high on my list.
Gender: It is a super secret...the only one that knows is the ultrasound tech...maybe we can request her for the 30-ish week 3D we want to have, she was nice.
Symptoms: Heartburn - nope. Swollen nose/sinuses - yes. Fat ankles - nope. Constipation - yes. Feeling like my belly grows all day - yes.
What I miss: Nothing. I can honestly say that I love being pregnant (all except for the fear of loss, I don't think after having experienced loss I can ever be like I was with my pregnancy with DD).
What I look forward to: Charlie being viable and being able to play music and feel Charlie move to it...
Moods: Eh, nervous...about everything. Health of the baby, work, bills, etc.
Milestones: DD felt Charlie kick last night! She was astonished.
Medical Concerns: Hopefully none at the moment, we will find out in a few weeks at my next appt.
Weekly Wisdom: The best time to go shopping at Target during the holidays = during a snowstorm.
Best moment this week: Definitely the look on DD's face when she felt Charlie move!
Worst moment this week: The horrible gas pains from last night with nothing to show for the pain! Booo.