Not really sure how to say it so here goes:
After my down in the dumps day yesterday I went home after work and took a HPT. I saw a slight hint of a line, DH didn't. I decided to wait until this morning and take a few tests, hoping for darker results. Well, yes, I got them. Faint lines on both wondfo internet cheapies and FRER (First response early result), I decided to use my only digital and it also came up pregnant. I texted DH the proof. He asked if we should start telling people, especially after what happened last year (m/c at 4-5 weeks pregnant). I told him that I think that we should tell, why not? I learned more about so many people and their losses from being open with mine.
I am hesitant and not as ecstatic as I should be as I have dealt with early loss before (my last O last Aug/Sep). After trying for so long I was so happy only to have my hopes and dreams shattered. I feel different now, different in that I know what to expect with loss. Different in that I know what will get me to have a "good" O. Different in that I know I have a chance. Before the loss I was clueless and had no idea how nervous every pregnancy after a loss would make me.
Beta on Friday and then I am guessing another one on Monday. Stick baby stick!!!