Yea, not so much. I am trying not to get my hopes waaaaaay up this time. Anything could happen, I could turn into a follie farm again and get cancelled, I could grow the perfect amount of follies only to have them never mature, I could have a "perfect" cycle (HA) and end up with a BFN, I could understim (HA again) and get cancelled, ugh....there are so many things that could go wrong. I sit and think about it all and wonder if I should just go ahead with IVF instead of dealing with all of this.
I have a MUCH better shot of pregnancy than if I never O...;) Hoping that this cycle is not another cancelled one like all of them in the last year. Talk about disappointing...I wish I could O...or how about I think I can O, I think I can O...LOL On a positive not, I am definitely feeling something going on in there...feeling a little crampy even after taking Tylenol. Good sign? We will see tomorrow I guess...;)
Appointment tomorrow. Another follie check and E2 levels. Hoping we see something happening...;)
Oh, here is something that kills me to admit:
I haven't taken a hpt in almost a YEAR. Why, you ask? Well, I had the m/c in September, put on hold for 2 months which turned into 3 as I don't get AF on my own. Another round of Clomid (lower dose because the OB was a moron) and there was no O. On hold for a month waiting for appt with RE, bcp for a month, first clomid cycle (Feb) no follies grew bigger than 8mm, same with 2nd clomid cycle (Mar), first injectables cycle overstimmed - cancelled (Apr/May), next cycle had cysts (June), and now I am currently on one of my last "hail mary" cycles before IVF next April (unless I have to go overseas for the military).
Can I get a freaking O please??? I should be going insane, right? August last year was my last O, no O earlier that year and no clue when I would have O'd before 2009. I doubt I have since I got pg with DD.
I hate my ovaries. Really...that is all that is wrong. My lining is beautiful every.single.time I get a u/s...just them darn ovaries...I flip them off all the time. They make me so mad.