15 month appointment

Hi all.  I have been thinking a lot about this blog...it was first started as a TTC with IF blog and I never intended for it to become an "all about baby" blog, but thought an update was in order.

T is now 15 months old, 20lbs 15oz (7%), 31.something inches (65%) and head circ is 91%.  Walking, talking, and has 10 teeth (2 molars coming in - eeek!).  He hasn't had an ear infection (yet) and has been in the best health since we brought him home from the hospital after his 13 day stay after he was born. 

Other than that?  Not much going on.  DH and I have talked about TTC#3, but at this point in our lives that is taking a back burner as we are both busy with our civilian and military careers.  I long for another child, but value my health (and life) and there is always that fear lurking in the back of my brain as to what could happen if we TTC again (high chance at multiples and high chance at Pre-E/HELLP again). 

So for now, I am signing off although I will keep this blog up and running as I hope that my journey helps someone else out there....

Countdown to 1st brithday!

Someone's little boy will be 1 year old in 2 weeks!  Eeeek!

Prediabetic

It isn't like I eat horribly...but, pretty sure I am right about this.  Thanks again PCOS.  My appointment can't come fast enough.

Endocrinologist appt and a non-crawling 10 month old...

Finally.  A doctor listened to my concerns!  My fasting blood sugar read high and I am awaiting an appointment with someone that might be able to give me some answers.  Reminds me that I need to find out from my dad who on his side of the family ended up with diabetes at a young age.  I am not obese, but I know there is something funky going on in my body and has been going on for a long time, maybe I can get some straight answers as to how PCOS has affected not just my fertility, but other aspects of my life also. 

T is still not crawling.  He is becoming quite mobile on his back by using his legs to push himself around.  He doesn't roll much anymore, but loves to play in his Jumperoo and in his Bright Starts Activity Station.  I have had many comments on how babies should crawl and that he will have issues later (reading, dexterity, etc) if he doesn't, but I have been doing a lot of reading and found that he just might skip crawling...and that is perfectly fine (as per his pediatrician).  And you know what?  It isn't like I am preventing him from crawling!  I mean, really?  Sometimes I wish people would stop giving parenting advice (assvice) but that might be asking a bit too much...:)

And HALT!

LOL.  Sometimes I make myself laugh and I need one today!  Fellow Navy personnel will (maybe) understand the title. 

So, we were bound and determined to go for #3.  I was 100% positive AF would stay away due to my crazy PCOS, but to my surprise she showed TWICE in a month!  Holy crap.  I was going to call today to schedule my HSG.  But..nope, DH got home and informed me that he will probably be going overseas for a bit (3+ months).  He would leave sometime next month so TTC #3 is on hold and probably won't happen now as I will have to adjust my schedule to allow for daycare.  And 2 (possibly 3) little ones in daycare (plus DD in the summer) would literally bankrupt us. 

I am trying to get to a place where I am ok with this, but after TTC for 12 years it is a hard thing for me to do.  Everyone that suffers from IF has their roadblocks, but dang...our 2nd careers in the military really do throw a wrench in our "plans".  I guess the problem that I have is that I never got that "feeling" that so many other moms have told me about, the feeling that my family is complete.  I hate to feel forced that my family is complete, but I have to remember that we have 2 beautiful miracle children.

Something that I HAVE to remember is that my RE reiterated that we were lucky, not just from having preeclampsia and HELLP (and both the baby and I surviving), but that we had 2 follies ready and 5 more that were so close that he was going to call off the cycle.  I am glad he didn't tell me that then as I would have been a mess as his clinic doesn't "allow" more than a twin pregnancy.

So fellow IF-ers...for now I am signing off.  I don't really want to think about TTC or anything related to it(which reminds me, I need to distance myself from all the mom groups as those women are TTC again and there are quite a few that are pg again).

I will leave you all with a recent pic of Trey. Our HELLP miracle.

Struggle...

So, I haven't been the best blogger in the world.  Eh, whatever. 

I am truly lucky.  Lucky to have the children that I was blessed with, lucky to have a great career (um, 2 of them), lucky to have the best DH a woman could have, and lucky to be alive.  I am truly happy, yet I long for another child.  It is hard to explain to my friends that have never dealt with IF, but how does one know that they are finished having children?  I am not sure that a number can be placed on how many children I would like to have.  DH laughed when I told him that.  I know it will be a struggle for both of us as we work opposite shifts, but a few years of that will benefit our bank account, and will give both of us lots of time with the kids. 

And...I will start Metformin tonight.  And I WILL open the paperwork that arrived in the mail from the RE.  Tonight. 

And it starts again....

So the decision has been made.  The RE's office got a call from me today.  I am waiting on my next AF and then I will call them back (well...I will call them after 35 days of no AF which will be in early January), then I start BCP and schedule an HSG.  Then it is on to Lupron!  For now I can get started back on Metformin. 

I "might" get a good O close to Trey's 1st bday!  Holy crap.  We are trying this again...and not wasting time on Clomid. 

And yes, got the go ahead from all the docs!